January 11, 2015

Confession of a Guilty Runner


I never thought I’d be in this position. The end of a long-term relationship, parting ways after years with a wonderful partner. It’s really hard, to move on, but it had to happen. And it was me who decided to do it.

There were signs, particularly in the last year or so, that the relationship wasn’t going to survive. I feel guilty, but more than anything I feel sad. Sad from all the memories I have of the things we did together. We accomplished so much! But it just couldn’t last. I tried everything to keep things going. But there is only so much one person can do to fix this kind of relationship.

So now I start over. Turn a new leaf as they say. I never thought I'd be here, and I’m a little nervous about it. I'm nervous I won't find a new partner, particularly one that will go the distance with me, and one that doesn’t bring me pain.

It’s been years since I’ve been on my own like this. And there is no doubt about it, I’m totally out of my element. I’ve “gone out” a couple of times but haven’t found that special one. I'm trying not to focus on things like looks because, as we runners know, what really matters is sole.  

Goodbye Hoka Stinsons. I will miss you.


8 comments:

Trail Plodder said...

LOL. Just threw out my old pairs of Bondi, Mafate and Rapa Nui. I have now 4 pairs of Stinsons. They are family members, not shoes.

Two Little Runners said...

You sooo got me! HA! It took me a few tries to part ways with my New Balance 890s, but we got back together again a few times. I think it's finally over now. Moved on to Saucony Mirage. ;) Kristen

Will said...

TP and TLR: It's like any other love affair...it always ends in sorrow.

Uli said...

So funny! For the longest time I thought you were talking about a person. BTW, my Bondis gave me plantar fasciitis. I think the softness overworked my foot.

Will said...

Uli: I can see that happening with Bondi's. They've done well for me though.

John Krause said...

lol, that got me! By the way my Bel Monte 50 miler went well and I also ran the JFK 50 miler...I have a 24 hour trail race in May and will be filming a Vlog/Documentary of my trailing and race.

Video : http://youtu.be/i6lNrWbd9IA

http://nextstopultra.blogspot.com/

Will said...

john, thanks for the comment. will check your film out...thanks for sharing.

Adeline said...

LOL, I love this post! This is how I feel every time I part ways with a pair of my favorite, trustworthy running shoes! But don't worry - you will definitely find a new pair you will fall in love with and which will go the entire distance with you! Thanks for this wonderful, fun post!