April 20, 2012

My Weaknesses


It has been said that while pursuing knowledge, one accumulates a little more each day. In pursuing the truth, one takes away a little more each day.

Many of the things we learn - our fears, insecurities, anxieties, self limitations - our weaknesses - we teach ourselves over a lifetime. The seeds of who we become are sown in our own life's experiences, and the water that nourishes them is our own imagination. Something happens to you when you are a child. A bad experience. A good one. Maybe a frightening one. Then life moves on, and you adapt. Maybe for the better. Or, maybe for the worse.

Which brings me to fear. Or more specifically, my fears. I'm not fretting here, because we all have them. The question that I ask myself sometimes is whether I am aware of my fears. Or do I keep them stuffed in a little box inside of me like a jack-in-the-box, winding them tighter and tighter every day until, heaven forbid, one bursts open and surprises the hell out of me. It's happened.

I wish I could say that I've dealt with all my weaknesses head on. But the truth is I haven't. Which brings me back to running. There is something about running, it's effect on the weaker side of who I am, that makes me want to come back to it. Because when I run, my fear of failure, my longing for vain and selfish things, the insecurities that lurk inside of me that I may never conquer, my faults and my weaknesses - all these things - they just melt away. 

8 comments:

Trail Plodder said...

Great story! Afraid of UTMB yet? :)

Will said...

TP...UTMB scares the bejesus out of me!!

EricG said...

You need to open up a little more Will:) Peace E

Will said...

I'm working on it Eric!

it's all about pace said...

Well put Will.

AshlumJean said...

I just love reading your blog! I don't know how I came across it but I enjoy your insights. Aren't runners just FABULOUS :D

AshlumJean said...

I love reading your blogs. Great insights! Aren't runners just amazing :D

Will said...

Thanks Ashley. Stay with running. It will stay within you.